Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Once upon a time

There was a magical time when I was just a Kidd and believed that I can concur the hole world . I believed that invisible friends are real, that I can sing better the Celine Dion, that I am a princess and Charming will come my way to rescue me from the big, bad world.
Then I grew up and learned that the world is Charming in it self, and I don't have to wait for a rescuer, I can be independent in this strange enchanted world full of so much beauty in it, that a life time seams to short for me to discover it. So here I go , walking small streets in cities I never heard before, like Tromso, or NyAlessund, feeling for the first time in my life at peace again. For the first time I didn’t feel I needed a guy by my side to feel that I can concur the world, I had the strength to do it on my own. And so the little princes tiered of waiting for a prince left.
I took this trip so I don’t lose my self and I ended up finding my self. From the scared sad little girl I managed to find this person with a direction in life. I always though that if I find someone to love me and that I love the rest wouldn’t matter. But it is not just one thing, one person that makes us happy, I learned that, it is all the little things around it, that we never paid attention to.
A few months ago I got an unexpected gift, in the most unexpected moment, and that made me recalculate all my believes. Go back to basics and keep it all straight and simple, like a line witch learns to curve between two points, I learned more about my self and then fireworks started shooting from the sky. Compromises are good but depends what and how much you are compromising because you might end up compromising your self.
I am grateful now, everyday because I know who I am, and where I want to be one day, and the only person responsible for my happiness, my sadness, my every emotion is me. And the princes got on her horse and ridden off to new adventures places, if one day she will meet a prince that prince that will know how to love her, as she will know how to love him, so be it , in any case the princes will try to be very happy …

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

starting over with a smile

What a crazy year 2008 was with more up's and down's then ever before but I am happy for this year, a regular roller coaster, it showed me how much I can do and tested my strength, my mind, my heart and my soul.
I think I will never forget this year because it changed me so much. I graduated and my teachers, ex teachers when they meet me they call me Miss Economist :) , witch I find extremely cool. And also 2008 brought new people into my life that taught me so much and that were there for me on top of all my very old friends and that made 2008 special. Most of them probably I will never see, some I have a feeling I will see again one day but I was so luck to have meet them.
Now 2009 kicked off and I got a new job on Carnival Cruise line as a Administrative Hotel Coordinator, and I am so looking forward to see to what new magical, especially worm I hope , place it will bring me.
In 2 weeks I am going to England for a few days and in the mean time I am waiting still for my embarkation date and place :) .
In the mean time I totally and completely hate my job, more then any other job I had before and I can't wait to see the day I will quite it, this time I will not even look back :) sounds horribile I know but I am used to do what I love , not something I hate , so Carnival here I come !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!